Yesterday I walked outside and glanced up at the sky only to notice the moon staring down at me with her adorable and divine brightness saying to me “hey girl, heeeyyyy!”. I responded “hey there, gorgeous”. A quaint little reminder from her that the time has come once again to do some releasing, forgiving, closing and completing of all things that no longer serve us. This is the power of the full moon!
Today’s Postcard from Spirit (#ColetteBaron-Reid) talks about forgiving and releasing. For the majority of my life, I interpreted forgiveness as allowing a wrong to be considered right. Forgiving someone for their actions meant I was telling them and myself it was completely acceptable. With that came the harboring of old wounds, grudges, anger, relentless emotional pain, traumatic memories, etc. All because of a value/meaning/understanding I assigned to a word.
So, what is forgiveness? At some point during which my marriage had ended and I was swimming deep in a self inflicted downward spiral of destruction, I got so sick and tired of feeling all the crap that was festering in me. All of it. And as the Universe would have it, I started to see signs all around me that prompted me to explore spirituality in a non – traditional way (and by traditional, I mean my Catholic upbringing). I was introduced to self care and self love. Not in the sense of getting my hair done or spoiling myself with a new pair of shoes, but rather in the sense of truly caring for and loving myself from the inside. As I embarked on this new found journey, I learned so much about myself. So much so, that I realized I didn’t give a shit about myself! My exterior had improved greatly but that wasn’t because I loved myself. I chose to focus on my exterior to mask the crap feelings that were swallowing me alive! Here I stood in the midst of an unpleasant realization, wondering what the heck to do now. I can’t forgive anything or anyone because in my eyes that meant being weak and submissive. Further along my journey, I came to understand what forgiveness truly means. And this is what I have learned…
We get so hung up on past experiences that we eventually lose sight of our present moment. Every decision we make revolves around the past. And we are faced with the harsh reality of never actually living in the present moment. As stated in today’s postcard “forgiveness is about releasing yourself from the burden of an old story”. Why do we continue to carry and replay that old story over and over again? Why do we place such a high value on something that literally no longer exists? Why do we criticize ourselves for wanting something different? At some point, we have to give ourselves permission to release the old story. The old story no longer serves us. Whether it be a relationship, parents, jobs, finances, friends, death, etc., we can no longer allow these experiences to determine our future. The more time we spend on that old story, the more we are screaming to the Universe PLEASE SEND ME MORE OF THAT! We will NEVER fully live in or appreciate the present moment until we forgive ourselves for hanging on to an old story. It doesn’t mean we are condoning the wrongdoing, it means we understand it is time to move on and remove the value from those experiences.
We all understand forgiveness doesn’t happen overnight but, by practicing self love and self care (from the inside out) we give ourselves the opportunity to help that process along and come from a place of love rather than anger or pain. The choices made in the past were made with the information in that current moment. We can’t continue to dwell on a moment that no longer exists and can’t be changed. Take advantage of this weekend’s full moon and work on releasing that old stuff, that crappy stuff, that painful stuff, that useless stuff. Take a gander at the links below for some full moon info by Yasmin Boland.
Remember, we are never alone in this journey. There is support all around us, all you have to do is take that first step and you will have already set the wheels in motion. The Universe is always listening. Ask for that guidance, it’s there just for us! You are absolutely worth all the love, happiness and abundance your heart can hold.
With Love and Divine Feminine Strength.
Yours Truly,
Anna R.
Feel free to reach out to me, at any time.
Full Moon Info:
http://www.moonology.com/current-full-moon/
http://www.moonology.com/work-full-moon/
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