Well, shit. It has been a VERY LONG time since I’ve spent some time here. And of course as you can imagine, so much has happened. Whether it’s good or bad is irrelevant. What matters for me is how I have responded to it. Are you ready? Here we go!!!!
What has been happening, you ask? Well, there has been a lot of nothing and a lot of everything. Yes, both simultaneously. I was going to use the word “stuck” but I feel as though that’s a cop out. In actuality, I have been experiencing a challenging period of reflection and understanding. There have been moments of sadness and despair and also so much joy and happiness. I have been caved into my thoughts and emotions to the point of, well, I can’t even really explain it all. Nothing tragic, though. Or at least I don’t feel it is tragic. I believe no matter how bad, sad or unwell I feel, I am abundantly blessed in life and I do my best never to lose sight of that. Honestly, I’ve gotten to the point where I never lose sight of it. It has taken me quite a few million years to get to the point where I grasp and maintain the understanding of life lessons and experiences. Ya know that phrase things are for a season or a reason? Isn’t a season still a reason? Yeah, I’m one of those folks that does that, lol. Every experience I have has its purpose, even if I don’t ever learn the reason. I trust the process.
Alright, I feel as though I’ve gotten completely off track. Sigh, figures.
Let’s get back to it…
One of my biggest challenges is following through. That is why I have yet to resume the women’s gatherings. Well, that and insecurities, lol. I used to be so good about it and then all of a sudden I just gave in to the “what-ifs”. But soon that will change and I will be releasing that nonsense. It will take some time and some spiritual maintenance, but it’ll happen. Aside from that, I struggle with figuring out where to host the gatherings or to have them online. I want there to be easy interaction, so I most likely will stick to hosting locally. Just gotta figure it all out.
Alright, now for the spiritual maintenance. Sigh, well I have not been consistent with it at all. I find myself in the midst of trying to decide what it’s all going to look like or how it will transpire. I know my path and all, but for some reason I intentionally stand still when it comes to the specifics. Now, don’t get me wrong, I am still active and whatnot, I will never not be. I will never not have my spirituality as a priority. But I digress, I stand in front of my altars looking at all the things that need my attention yet I don’t do anything about it. I always have my conversations with my cuadro espiritual and talk about what is going on and how I feel about it all. That’s the best part of it, I never stop talking. It is imperative that I always have that communication and relationship with my spiritual court/frame. I have a long list of to-do’s and I check them off very slowly but surely because I know my bigger tasks are approaching. I want to do my best to be available and ready for what I know is on its way!
Moving right along…I find that life has presented itself like it did some years ago, for me. Same folks, same happenings and same surroundings, but this time, I just don’t care to get involved. From theatrical nonsense to redundant behavior…it’s all for the birds. It gets old and I’d rather do things that truly feel good and peaceful to me. Speaking of which, guess who has entered their señora stage?! I have started working on creating a garden in my yards. The front has been going on with herbs for a while now but it’s not very organized. The backyard doesn’t have anything yet but I am gathering what I need to commence the process. The hardest part is learning what you can plant and grow as seasons change. Ultimately, I want to create it all for spiritual purposes while also making my yards all nice and pretty. I have a grandbaby coming soon and I want there to be a loving, safe, calm and peaceful place to play and experience family.
So that’s the final part of what is happening. We have a new addition to the family coming soon!!! I rest well knowing this new addition walks with protection I have never known before and I am so grateful for that. My daughter and her partner are abundantly and overly spiritually blessed with gifts and I can only imagine how that will transpire in my grandbaby.
The women’s gatherings are coming back soon, no matter where I end up hosting them. I am always doing readings and will always be here and available for you. Tell me about how things are going for you, no matter how not so great it feels to do so. I love to hear from you all!
To life and all the weird and amazing shit it brings us!
With Love and Divine Feminine Strength.
Yours Truly,
Anna R.
